i am exactly what i am when you talk to me

people need a friendly surface regardless of what lies underneath, and i just can't cater to that. i can't, you know. i am exactly what i am when you talk to me, maybe not when you see me because looks can be deceiving. and it depend on what you need from me. lots of people need me in the public maybe to be introverted and just need me to be the kind of hero that they need, or the kind of villain that they need to see, but i'm none of that, or maybe i'm all of that. but you'll never know until you taste it for yourself, until you meet me, you know, i'm fine, we could talk on and on about lots of things you know

(part 2 of 1995 interview)

I just found two interviews jeff did with steve harris for a japanese magazine. one is from 1994, and the other from 1995.

the second one is kind of bad quality, but i'm listening to catch every word. i've been searching for interviews and pictures of jeff for a long time, and i love how new things still surface. like these three pictures. which i LOVE. these interviews... man, i wish i was as eloquent as he was. the way he saw the world, the way he lived, his thoughts, his words all just make me want to learn more, and experience more things and go to different places and meet new people, and create create create, to express, to read, to write... and i haven't even gotten to his music, which is other worldly. people always glorify and sanctify people once they're gone, but really, i think he was/is the most amazing and inspiring artist and person, that i've been exposed to. i love listening to him talk in these interviews, i dream of being able to have a conversation with him... man i sound obsessed.. and maybe i am.  but just listen for yourself. 

1994: part 1 part 2 part 3 part 4

1995: part 1 part 2 part 3 part 4

I have no concern for the fear of music

Steve Harris: Actually it now occurs to me that the one negative thing that I read about you was a review of a concert, it said up to the end it was magnificent, then you did the long version of Kanga Roo then it sort of  turned off that particular viewer--

Jeff Buckley: --Which uh, was it the London was it with the--

Steve Harris: I think it was the New Music Express

Jeff Buckley: Can I say something? This is not bragging; every fucking person that was in front of me at the beginning of the show that I saw - and I'm aware of my audience - was still there, and we, the place was silent while we were playing Kanga Roo.

He just got impatient. He just doesn't care. That's cool. Or he thinks that songs should be longer than you know three minutes. Or I don't know maybe he just plain thought it was bad but that was one of the best Kanga Roos we ever played.

Oh, it was the first time it ever happened like that.

But that's okay, some people think that, you know, Patti Smith is a fake. Some people thought James Dean was a fake. Who knows? It's art. But we had a good time. We played some really stinky Kanga Roos though. Some of those've been 12 minutes. It's hit or miss, and thats well, that's the whole point you know. It could happen, it could not. We don't know what's going to go on, that's the thing with that song, we don't know what's going to happen ahead of time. We don't plan that shit out. It's pure interaction; I'm leading it and maybe there might be some text that I make up or text that I've mast over a few days or maybe I sing it all, and it's mostly, it's suppose to be Matty propelling the rhythm with the drums but uh lots of reviewers are you know waiting for this "perfect show". But that's because they've got their own expectations all over it. And I have no concern for that, or I have no concern for the fear of music.

INTERVIEW

this interview from 1994 is amazing.