i am exactly what i am when you talk to me

people need a friendly surface regardless of what lies underneath, and i just can't cater to that. i can't, you know. i am exactly what i am when you talk to me, maybe not when you see me because looks can be deceiving. and it depend on what you need from me. lots of people need me in the public maybe to be introverted and just need me to be the kind of hero that they need, or the kind of villain that they need to see, but i'm none of that, or maybe i'm all of that. but you'll never know until you taste it for yourself, until you meet me, you know, i'm fine, we could talk on and on about lots of things you know

(part 2 of 1995 interview)

I just found two interviews jeff did with steve harris for a japanese magazine. one is from 1994, and the other from 1995.

the second one is kind of bad quality, but i'm listening to catch every word. i've been searching for interviews and pictures of jeff for a long time, and i love how new things still surface. like these three pictures. which i LOVE. these interviews... man, i wish i was as eloquent as he was. the way he saw the world, the way he lived, his thoughts, his words all just make me want to learn more, and experience more things and go to different places and meet new people, and create create create, to express, to read, to write... and i haven't even gotten to his music, which is other worldly. people always glorify and sanctify people once they're gone, but really, i think he was/is the most amazing and inspiring artist and person, that i've been exposed to. i love listening to him talk in these interviews, i dream of being able to have a conversation with him... man i sound obsessed.. and maybe i am.  but just listen for yourself. 

1994: part 1 part 2 part 3 part 4

1995: part 1 part 2 part 3 part 4

helena

It's great to be single, but I never really think of myself as being a girlfriend or a single person, I'm way too independent for that. I don't think I ever really introduced myself as being someone's girlfriend even when I was in a relationship. I guess I just don't define myself like that. I think it's because I've always been on my own and travelling so much, so I can't even say, 'This is my boyfriend,' when I introduce someone. And I've hurt for it, when someone says to me, 'Why do you never introduce me as your boyfriend?'

I'm telling you the most important thing for me every day of my career was, where's my next meal, how much can I eat in the half hour break? And room service, my God, room service was probably the highlight of my career. I could check in to a hotel room and order enough food for six people. They would literally wheel in the tray of food. Those were the days man. I didn't care if I was working the next day for an amazing magazine, doing the cover. That was a nice little perk, but travelling the world and eating all the food of different cultures - that was the greatest advantage of this job for me.

If you walked into the places where I live, you'd think: 'Couldn't she afford something a little better?' I'm still a bit of a gypsy. I thought that when I was doing less modelling, and going into different areas, that I would find myself settled somewhere - but that hasn't happened. And I'm happy with that. What I really enjoy in life is that I'm always travelling and gathering new experiences. Even if you interview me when I'm 70, I think I will still be on the move.

It's usually some emotion that just happens right in front of me and I want to keep that emotion forever.

If I have a camera I can. If I don't have a camera I beat myself up for weeks and weeks about how I missed it.

When I modelled, looking sexy was the last thing on my mind.

I would be thinking about bills to pay, planes to take, how I was going to decorate my flat, people I had to call.

I'm the ultimate hippy photographer. I hate digital photography. I hate its perfection because it removes so much of the atmosphere.

Other photographers stick up light meters everywhere to measure light, whereas I just stick up my hand to see how the light looks against it.

I don't know much about flash, I generally use natural light.

I will give my assistant instructions like, 'I want it to have a French movie atmosphere' or, 'I want to see longer shadows on the face'

I spent all my youth working with the world's best photographers as a model and I think much of their knowledge filtered through to me. Bono is one of my favourite subjects to photograph.

When I was 14 or 15, I used to have his picture on my wall because I was such a huge fan of U2. I always felt his eyes piercing out from the poster with that incredible passion of his.

I first met him when I was in my early twenties and we connected instantly.

He has the most amazing face to capture on film.

 I worry about nearing death more than getting older. It’s always been a huge issue for me, the thought of every hour and every day being one bit closer to death. I’m going to make you very depressed! You’re going to leave this interview and go… But I’m also very easy to make happy! It’s the little things, silly little things - a leaf floating in rain water.

 I was around creative and inspiring personalities every day for 15 years.

My son said to me the other day, "Can you always be the way you are now?" like he always wants to be seven, and I said to him, "You have no idea how much that is a human wish." Of course I would love not to get any older. I'm not thinking about losing my youthful appearance or anything, I just don't want to die. I just want to live and live and live.

You know what, I’m in a very interesting phase of being curious and open about everything and everyone right now. People always feel sorry for you if you’re single, but I think it’s the best time. At this point in my life I see a relationship as I want to die with this person.

I’m way too morbid! But sometimes it pops up in my head - is this the person that I want to be in bed with, holding their hand? And are these the last eyes I’m going to look into? So basically that cuts out a lot of people, because how many people do you want to sit and have that experience with? .. If you don’t want to be in a relationship, just put that thought in your head! 

When I appeared in Chris Isaak's Wicked Game video, I was running around the beach supposedly looking all dreamy and sensual, well, the reality was quite the opposite.

I was exhausted from flying and we were on this volcanic beach where sand was burning my feet.

It's all shot from the waist up because I was bleeding from the knees down.

The finished video looked fantastic, though, so what's a little suffering?

Read more: http://www.mailonsunday.co.uk/home/moslive/article-459271/Helena-Christensen-goes-lens.html#ixzz0fwCYUpFD

http://www.independent.co.uk/news/people/profiles/helena-christensen-role-model-481685.html

http://www.me-me-me.tv/2007/05/30/exclusive-we-interview-helena-christensen-yey/

http://www.heraldscotland.com/helena-christensen-interview-1.835415

portraits

classic icon: marilyn

johnny

My body is a journal in a way, where every tattoo means something, a specific time in your life where you make a mark on yourself.
 When kids hit one year old, it's like hanging out with a miniature drunk. You have to hold onto them. They bump into things. They laugh and cry. They urinate. They vomit.
As a teenager I was so insecure. I was the type of guy that never fitted in because he never dared to choose. I was convinced I had absolutely no talent at all. For nothing. And that thought took away all my ambition too.

 If I can avoid the mirror when I brush my teeth in the morning, I will.

I'm attracted to the extreme light and the extreme dark. I'm interested in the human condition and what makes people tick. I'm interested in the things people try to hide.